Emotional cleanse, anyone?
Hey there!
Have you noticed the days are getting just a tiny bit longer? I’ve become accustomed to arriving home after work and catching only the dim purple afterglow – but yesterday, I was able to watch the entire tangerine sunset. It felt like a reminder that good things are on the way, and that perhaps Punxsutawney was wrong, and sunshine and warmer days are closer than we know.
All that’s to say: I have been in need of an emotional cleanse. This winter has taken a lot out of me, and many nights I catch myself in self-pity, circling the laundry list of chores and work assignments. Times like these remind me that I could benefit from a… hmm…. not quite a spiritual cleanse, nor a self-help cleanse, but rather an emotional-reset-to-remind-myself-I’m-on-the-right-path-&-everything-just-might-work-out-after-all-cleanse. Below is a list of what I will do tonight to help me ground myself and reset.
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Slip on a pair of clean nighttime socks, and throw out any irreparable ones with holes in the big toe.
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Refill my ice trays and load up two cups: a special cup for a fun drink – calling all my fellow Dr. Pepper queers – and one 32oz mason jar with crisp New York tap water.
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Sharpen my wooden pencils and brush off my desk.
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Strike a match and light up Hellbound Heart, feeling connected to all the scorned women who came before me.
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Choose 3 journaling prompts and write by the candlelight, perhaps with a YouTube vinyl session mix rolling away in the background. Doesn’t that sound lovely?
A big challenge of working through an emotional reset is attempting to let go of any resentments that have been brewing inside of me. Justified resentments are particularly toxic and difficult to let go of. These include the times I have been treated as less than, undervalued, cut down, rejected, and just flat out treated badly. At a certain point (sometimes it takes a day, a month, or many months) harboring these feelings of anger stops making me feel feisty, fiery rage, and begins to make me feel like I am drinking poison and hoping the other person dies. When this mental switch happens, I usually feel it in my bones, and I will know that it is time to give the resentment up and give myself an emotional reset.
My fragrance of choice this evening, Hellbound Heart, is designed with the intention of allowing yourself to feel connected to your rage, and also to let go of it. It was drawn out of experiences of being an emotional, scorned woman - something which is often scrutinized and discouraged - and created with the desire to let go of heavy emotions. The wish is that by the time you are done burning it, you have a fresh start.
And just like that, I have finished my Dr. Pepper, which is my clue that I need to begin changing my socks before it gets too late and I start yawning…
Talk to you soon,
Sonny
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Creative Brand Coordinator
